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Goals for 2006
Tuesday, January 3, 2006
First of all, I'm really grateful that God sent David and Kash to confront me about my last entry :). They really, really helped to balance me out and caused me to see that almost the entirety of chart I posted was exaggerated/false information. O__O;; How was I so easily deluded? Since when did I decide to regard everything I knew to be a lie and so quickly accept random new information as truth?! Arghh!
I'm sorry guys. From now on I'll be more careful about this kind of stuff and actually do some research before I drastically change my thinking. Sometime I'll look into these matters in depth and create my own left and right comparison. When I do, I'll post it here, as well as send it to my film teacher ^^. Oh yes... more exploration in store for Vic :).
I've been thinking a lot about my resolutions/goals for 2006. First, my priorities for the year:
1. God
2. Art
Secondary priorities include music, programming/job-related endeavors, my college degree, films, martial arts, writing, web comics/web surfing, miscellaneous fun stuff, etc.
For both God and art, I hope to totally fix my schedule. I'm thinking that if I get to bed around 10-11 PM and get up around 5-5:30 AM (depending on the day), I'll have almost one hour for God and one for art right in the morning, which would be super ideal. Especially for God, since it's become quite obvious that if I don't spend time in His Word in the morning, I won't have time for it at all. Now that you know this, you'll all have to give me a poke if you see me on AIM past 11 PM ;) because as some of you know, I have a horrid habit of staying up till 2 AM and getting up with only enough time to rush out the door on weekdays. Also, 5 hours of sleep is not enough for my scrambled, minuscule brain; I need 7.
I will never, ever be fully happy unless I have a complete and growing kind of relationship with God, the kind that's like a pearl for which one sells all her belongings (Mt. 13:44-45). I want the kind that is the Kingdom of God on earth, which gives a human all the purpose and fulfillment in life she could ever wish for. This past year, I haven't had that; I've been terrible about getting in quiet time and Bible reading (which I know has weakened me and my faith—I was almost giving up conservative Christianity in my last entry? That's NOT what I want to do). For one, not enough discipline, and secondly, parts of my human nature which have made the Old Testament and certain concepts extremely hard to swallow. So this year, I'll focus on quiet time plus Psalms/Proverbs and the New Testament; once I'm more in tune, I'll try again for reading the entire Scriptures ^^;;.
I have got to lose my feminist world view (as opposed to Biblical world view) because whenever I'm not emotionally involved in the matter (like I was in my last post, lol), I can always see that it has the potential to be my personal road to hell, if there can be such a thing. I will always wish for the equally good, if not equal, treatment of people regardless of gender; however, it's seeing things through a feminist lense that is detrimental to me.
I plan to make some more of these Bible comic things for myself. I noticed that if I sketch out the basic imagery of a passage, it makes it exponentially easier to absorb! (Otherwise, it sometimes goes down as obscure mumbo-jumbo :-/ ya know?) Here is part of Psalm 143, which has been kind of my theme chapter this last week.
So yes... lots of transparency here, but I've decided that life's too short to not be honest on your own blog ^__^. And, I may fail, but I felt it was important to make the first step of getting things written down. An hour may seem like a lot right now, but if I try my best and get even just 10 minutes of prayer done in the morning, well, that's like 9 minutes longer than what I've been doing ^^;;.
Now art: Besides these Bible comics (not really for the purpose of artistic value), I hope to do semi-frequent sketching, whether that is for the Daily Sketch Group or story-boarding for Candid Manga. Speaking of that, I'm thinking of basing the chapters of Candid Manga on the 49 commands of Christ. It would be a really cool challenge, and I'd have a motivation to get into Christ's teachings, which I've never studied in depth before. Anyway, I also want to try one serious matte painting this year, and hopefully some other long-term digital art pieces that I can eventually put into a portfolio. For now, there is so much about art that I still need and want to explore. I need to get a better handle on anatomy, design in general, and creating print-resolution images. I don't know what I will do with art yet, but I'll never know unless I jump more deeply into it.
Something I did for the DSG last week:
"She takes a moment to reflect over everything that had happened in the last year. Stuff she did, stuff she didn't do, people she interacted with, important events that occurred."
Oh, and new layout ^^; like it? Kinda different style for me, especially when you compare this violist to the ultra modest, head-covered, baggy-sleeved nun lady from version 2. If anybody thinks I should make this character a little more "edifying," please let me know. I will probably not change her hair color though. She's supposed to be slightly futuristic to contrast the acoustic instrument, ya know? XD
Anyway, thanks to Tony for his PHP script and for helping me get it to work!! Besides putting this site into a sort of PHP template, and switching my blog software to Movable Type, I've also updated the pages and added to random Weien quotes (there are now 50 of them :D). Something else new is that, now that I am free of frames (FREEDOM YEAHHHH), and because of change in personal preference, most links won't be opening in new windows anymore (I use Firefox's middle-click for opening stuff in new tabs now ^^). Let me know if you guys find any broken links/errors.
Cheers and may you all have a wonderful year, the best ever!
