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I looked at the window; it looked back at me.
Saturday, March 27, 2004
So... here's a picture I drew a few days ago, the wondrous ultimate in sickening cliché meets vicart™ :D. I've found a mediocre but undead oekaki board so it's all good. I wish I could just find a decent paintchat again. BattleSong is actually still alive, haha, and we are planning some good things for it; in the meantime I moved the images and gallery into my own server. As for this site, I took the glow style out of the main blog sections because AHHH, THAT'S what was glitching it up and lagging the scrolling :P. The 4H site is down and I don't feel any motivation whatsoever to set it back up at this point in time. What I do want to do is revamp my old galaxy site because... it is coo' xD.
I saw The Passion of the Christ last weekend. The movie is a work of art. Every aspect was very carefully put into play, always leaning toward the extreme side, always tying back into the main point. I will agree with the masses that it was a very moving experience, one which can definately change lives. However, I absorbed it intellectually throughout, and while I shed no tears, the movie helped me greatly with some conflicts which were at the back of my mind as I entered the theater. Along with my usual feministic tendancies (or what is left of them, thanks to those who gave me some counsel regarding such things), I detected in myself a slight mistrust in God steming from my violent hatred for certain events that I am reminded of every now and then, such as sexual assault, forced promiscuity, and other variants of the worst of demoralizing and destructive actions against the female kind. As I watched the movie, seeing Christ beaten was not what really hit me; rather it was the repeated occurance of Satan, which began as one who denied that Christ's burden could be beared, and ended as one who had lost and was doomed. It sunk into me that what happens in this life is not the important thing-- what is important is the infinity that happens after. No one is going to be totured and raped forever-- Satan may be hanging around for now, but in the end, the good will always win. Justice will be done. In the great and grand scheme of things... it's gonna be ok. Ah, how hard it can be to focus on the grand scheme of things. But yeah. That is what God did for me through The Passion.
And I should mention again my gratitude for people such as Kyle and even Mrs. Bramsen for giving me some things to think about when I admitted to feminism in my thinking. Consider the following SNIPLETS:
Kyle (6:49:56 PM): its an equality, but they don't know what they really want
Kyle (6:50:18 PM): they really want someone to stand beside them, to hold and affirm them
Kyle (6:50:30 PM): here is my point....
Kyle (6:51:12 PM): If women would seek out the example that Christ has in scripture, they would find true happiness
VI0LIST (6:52:49 PM): sometimes it seems so much harder raising children and keeping a house than going to work...
Kyle (6:53:12 PM): but with labor comes contentment
VI0LIST (6:53:37 PM): true...
Kyle (6:53:39 PM): you won't be happy until you do your most
Kyle (6:53:57 PM): and that is by building the next generation
Kyle (6:54:28 PM): who knows, the work that you do as a mother could ultimately be residing in the white house
Kyle (6:54:36 PM): you run the world indirectly
VI0LIST (6:54:53 PM): wouldn't you rather be in the white house than having your offspring in the white house?
Kyle (6:56:29 PM): what I'm saying is, you can be running the senate, the congress, and the whitehouse if you do it right!
Kyle (6:56:40 PM): if you have 3 well done kids
Kyle (6:57:07 PM): so you would have more than one position
Kyle (6:57:16 PM): figuratively
VI0LIST (6:58:10 PM): so that's good enough for you?
Kyle (6:58:15 PM): what I'm saying is God knew what He was doing, I don't think that you will have dishonor in heaven for obeying Him
It's awesome seeing such things from a 15 year old GUY no less. The reasonings would have, however, been empty and offensive were it not for the beautifully respectful and understanding way in which he presented them to me in real life as well as online. Few could do that! Props to Kyle! Mrs. Bramsen's theory is that it is better to focus on what is really important than get caught up in what angers you. "Those [idiodic] guys are going through a phase and one day it will be different." She encouraged me to see things through Jesus' eyes, rather than waste my time getting offended. Additionally, she basically said that we are all imperfect so there. A reprimanding! Haha. Dawn's theory is that males are very different from females, with differing strengths and weaknesses, and it is the resulting confusion which causes the problems. Also she believes that "once I find the right man" kind of thing, it'll all be easier. If you read my first post about violasong.com, you will see that I actually have a theory for my issue as well. Just a bit more theoretical. Maybe I'll write more about this later... but I wanted to remember the good things that happen because God is good, even when your faith in Him isn't as solid as it should be. I'm working on it :P.
Lan party at headquarters/pallocks'; was interesting but I was feeling kind of um left out of a few games while trying to install starcraft for the 4th time or whatever x_x... I was glad for Lydia, though, who is awesome and was keeping me company throughout the party... also Matt B for his support and Dan for voluntarily helping me with starcraft. I really hope the latter two were in friendship rather than in pity or chivalry. Eheh. I don't know where I stand. I dunno. But it's ok. Oh yeah and Jenny my roommate is so cool, and also I found out that her bro was my bro's roommate at a string workshop two years ago. w00h! Well I should definately go to bed now. Let me know what you are thinking, plz... and God bless you :D.
9:29 AM
Comments
Haha it's Jeff's sister! Good to see you learning. :D And look, you're at a LAN party that I'm not at! Yay?
Posted by Weien at April 1, 2004 5:14 AM